Tuesday, 16 July 2013

pure potential

Here are my dreams. There are many which have been entertained in the past and then released, but these are the ones which still sleep inside the spinning wheel of the heart chakra. Firstly, I want to make Tarot into a part of my life. For good. I want to put out a new manifesto for those who really want to take Tarot into the future. I don't want to tell people how to live their lives - I want to empower and inspire them to live their lives on their own terms and believe in their own bravery. I want to talk about archetypes as though they're living and breathing, as though they live within and without, as though we can touch them, follow them, mirror them as they mirror us. I want to talk about shadow work, spiritual evolution and how I stopped self-harming and started self-loving. I want to connect with people who are on the look out for unity and consciousness expansion. I want to inspire and be inspired.

I want to write. I want to write relentlessly and get paid for it. I don't want to have to compromise on this. I want to find a little slice of space on this planet in which I can write from dawn until dusk without having to worry about how to pay my rent. I want the writing to be the meal ticket.

I want to travel around. I've been fortunate enough to be able to do this and I want to do it some more. But this time I want to be able to take my work with me. I no longer want work to mean that I'm chained to the spot.

I want to tie up the loose ends, do the emotional work which is left over, clear away the debris, feel the fresh start underneath me like earth - solid, dependable, ready to nourish planted seeds. I want to love my friends and support them and encourage them even more than I do now.

I want independence. I want to run workshops. I want to exchange information. I want to teach a Tarot class outside on the grass with massive floor cushions and cool refreshments. I want to live close to the ocean at least once. I want to live in Spain at least once. I want to visit Japan. I want to live in London again. I want to live in Moscow again. I want to feel absolutely unchained by any of these foolish Western notions people still hang on to about what a woman should be doing in her thirties. None of that concerns me. I want to approach the big 3 0 with nothing but love for my pure potential because that's what we all have running through every dancing atom of our flesh - pure fucking potential. Amen.